Monday, August 4, 2008

First Friday

I look forward to First Fridays, when we have an hour of Adoration of the Blessed Sacrament at our little parish. It brings peace to sit before our Lord. The smell of incense lingers in the hush of the church, sunlight filters through stained glass and prayer candles gently flicker. If I arrive there with questions in my soul, I find His presence brings quick answers. He is generous in this way, allowing His wisdom to enter me. Here is what I wrote in my journal Friday while sitting with Him:

It is far better to be one with the Creator - to seek His face - rather than the creation. We so often seek the creation in this world, often without recognizing we have placed what we desire in God's place. It is Him alone we must seek. All else must flow from this: marriage, children, friendships, family, housing, jobs, ministry, interests, material goods, secret desires, even paths of spirituality.

He is our sun. We cannot exist without Him. I can see why the ancient Irish monks chose this symbol for Him. Without Him, there is no life. He is the center of our universe. All is dependent upon Him. His goodness is like the warm rays of light - visible and palpable - that break through clouds and dark forests, revealing what is real but often not seen. His mercy is like the warmth on one's face when turned upward toward the sun, and His grace is like the effect of the light that makes plants grow, thereby nourishing our world through a vast chain reaction.

Like sunlight on plants, His grace enters our lives, poured on us in endless quantities, nourishing our souls. When we pass this on to others, we cause unknown chain reactions of God's mercy, goodness, grace and salvation in the lives of those we affect, perhaps in quantities as great as atomic energy. (In other words, the movement of grace.)

Similarly, one bad choice can set off a chain reaction in negative ways. We run from the Lord - I imagine racing away on a bicycle - and when we tumble, we must limp back to Him. Because our God is one of second chances, He doesn't want us to wallow in our mistakes; He wants to help us get it right. Our bicycles may be battered and twisted from our fall, but He makes them ridable again. He heals our bumps and bruises.

If I am journeying on my bicycle, I want Jesus as my pilot. I invite Him to sit on my handlebars, telling me which way to go. I pray I may see the encouragement of His strong back before my eyes. Decisions about direction are to be His, not mine. I need only watch, listen, seek and follow.

I have returned again to the place in my heart when I first asked Jesus to be the driver, to take His rightful place in the front seat at the wheel of my life.


LL said...

Oh, so beautifully expressed. "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God".

Your post elaborates on this in a very meaningful way today. Thank you.

Macile Hooper LeJeune said...

I am always amazed ... how you put words together ... to make such wonderful thoughts ... and always ... with our Creator ... Father, Son, and Holy Spirit ... at the end of your path. Merci, ma cherie; another one for Jesus.
DIEU TE BENISSE!!! Cajun Sissy

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Kalianne@BygoneBeauty said...

Hi Esther,

It was lovely to meet you today! The service you describe sounds very beautiful.

I like your thoughts about Jesus abiding in the heart. It reminds me of my Scripture reading this morning,

"Behold, I stand at the door and knock, if any man hear my voice and open the door, I will come in to him, and sup with him and he with me."

Isn't this a wonderful promise!


Anonymous said...

Dear Esther;

"Decisions about direction are to be His, not mine. I need only watch, listen, seek and follow" Yes, It is His will that we must follow not ours. We must get out of our own way and let Him be the one in complete control.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts. And also, for stopping by...

In Christ,


Esther said...

Lavinia: Thank you - I'm so glad it reflected that.

Macile: You are sweet and kind - thank you.

Kalianne: It's nice to meet you, too! Thanks for stopping by. Oh yes, I love that, too. I wonder, how is He knocking at my door today?

Mari: I'm so glad you stopped by. I must continue to allow Him to lead. I'm so ready to jump in front it seems!